雙語(yǔ)美文 | 我早就說(shuō)了嘛

Those 4 words never sounded so good

我從未覺(jué)得這幾個(gè)字如此動(dòng)聽(tīng)

till the June morning

直到一個(gè)六月的早晨

in my mom's hospital room.

在母親的病房里

It began when my mother was admitted to the hospital

事情的開(kāi)始是這樣的，我母親要住院

for a really bad infection in her bladder.

因?yàn)榘螂子袊?yán)重的感染

It was November 21

那是11月21日

when they called us to her hospital room

醫(yī)院把我們一家人叫到母親的病房里

to tell us my mom had a mass tumor

告訴我們，母親長(zhǎng)了一個(gè)腫塊腫瘤

it was big in her stomach

在她的胃里，面積很大

and it was malignant.

是個(gè)惡性腫瘤

They went over a couple of options

他們列出了幾種治療方案

but all I heard was MDAnderson & biopsy.

我卻只聽(tīng)到了癌癥中心和活體檢查

That same night at about 2 a.m.

當(dāng)天夜里，凌晨?jī)牲c(diǎn)鐘的時(shí)候

my mom got dressed

我母親穿戴整齊

called my stepdad

叫上我的繼父

and walked out of that hospital,

兩人走出了醫(yī)院

she wanted to go home.

她想要回家

The next morning

第二天早上

we went to talk to the surgeon

我們?nèi)フ裔t(yī)生談話

to find out what does this mean,

去詢問(wèn)母親昨晚的舉動(dòng)有何用意

how long does she have by refusing treatment

她這樣拒絕治療，還剩下多少日子

& he said 15 days

他說(shuō)，大概半個(gè)月

maybe less.

也可能更少

I was so scared

我害怕極了

I couldn't accept losing my mom

我不能承受失去母親的痛苦

my only parent

雙親里我只剩下她了

since dad died when I was 5 years old.

因?yàn)槲?歲的時(shí)候父親就過(guò)世了

My stepdad was an ok kinda person

我的繼父是一個(gè)不冷不熱的人

just not involved with our lives growing.

在我們成長(zhǎng)過(guò)程中，都沒(méi)有管過(guò)我們

So 15 days,

所以，還有半個(gè)月

I had

這就是我所有的全部

to pray, to beg, to cry,

我只有這些時(shí)間去祈禱，去乞求，去痛哭流涕

to spend time with my mom.

去與母親共度

I didn't judge her decision

我沒(méi)有職責(zé)她放棄治療的決定

she's my mom

她是我的母親

she has earned the right to decide what she wants.

她有權(quán)決定自己想要的是什么

My siblings didn't see it that way

我的兄弟姐妹們并不這樣想

but really what can you do.

可是你能怎么做呢

I asked everyone I came in contact with

我對(duì)自己能聯(lián)系上的每一個(gè)人都發(fā)出了請(qǐng)求

if they could say wish good luck for my mom,

我問(wèn)他們能否祝我母親好運(yùn)

I mean everyone.

我說(shuō)的是所有人

The day came and went

日子一天天過(guò)去

and she did sleep a lot

她確實(shí)睡得很多

but my stepdad says she seems ok,

但是繼父說(shuō)，她看起來(lái)情況還不錯(cuò)

when I'd go visit her

當(dāng)我去看望她的時(shí)候

I would just sit and stare at her

我坐在那里，緊緊的盯著她

I imagine she probably felt like a specimen under a microscope

我想，她大概覺(jué)得自己就像是顯微鏡下面的一個(gè)標(biāo)本

because she'd just cough

因?yàn)?，她只不過(guò)喝水嗆了一下

and all heads turned to her glasses of water

所有人都看向她手中的水杯

in every direction

從各個(gè)方向看著她

my poor mom.

我可憐的媽媽

Then 7 months later

7個(gè)月過(guò)后

she ends up back in hospital

她又住進(jìn)了醫(yī)院

because her bladder is hurting real bad.

因?yàn)樗陌螂滋鄣暮軈柡?/p>

I remember sitting there

我記得自己坐在那里

just me and my granddaughter

只有我和我的小孫女

because she really wanted to visit her G.G.Ma

因?yàn)樗芟肟赐幌滤脑婺?/p>

and I watched her do her crossword puzzle

我看著她玩字謎

trying to sneak in a picture here and there.

設(shè)法在這里那里拼出一個(gè)圖案來(lái)

The oncologist walks in the room

醫(yī)生走進(jìn)病房

asks my mom how she feeling

問(wèn)我母親感覺(jué)如何

she says I feel fine

她說(shuō)，我感覺(jué)挺好的

can I go home now?

今天我能回家了嗎

The Dr then says

醫(yī)生說(shuō)

i'm sorry

實(shí)在抱歉

but I cannot be your doctor

可是，我沒(méi)法給你看病

so I cannot make that decision.

所以，我也不能決定你何時(shí)出院

She looks confused

母親一臉的疑惑

I'm stunned

我也感到十分驚訝

so I asked what did my mom do now?

于是問(wèn)道，我媽媽又做了什么

He smiled

醫(yī)生笑了笑

and looked my mom straight in her eyes

直直的看著母親的眼睛

he says I'm a cancer doctor

他說(shuō)，我是一個(gè)腫瘤醫(yī)生

since all your tests came back clear

你的結(jié)果都非常好

I cannot be in charge of your care.

我不能再掌管你的健康問(wèn)題了

I'm looking at him

我定定的看著醫(yī)生

wide eyed big goofy smile

雙目圓瞪，一臉傻笑

and as I turned to see my mom's reaction

我轉(zhuǎn)過(guò)頭去看母親的反應(yīng)

she picks up her crossword puzzle

母親拿起我女兒的字謎游戲

says as casual as can be

用最隨意的語(yǔ)氣說(shuō)

"See I told you I wasn't sick!"

“看吧，都跟你說(shuō)了，我沒(méi)病!”

I could only manage to say

我一時(shí)百感交集，只能說(shuō)出話一句

"yup you sure did mom."

“嗯吶，你確實(shí)說(shuō)過(guò)，媽媽”

That was 2 and a half years ago

這是兩年半之前的事情

and she's still mouthier as ever

她還和往常一樣巧言善辯

but I went and thanked everyone

我向所有的人都道謝了

because I truly witnessed a miracle first hand.

因?yàn)槲艺娴挠H眼見(jiàn)證了一個(gè)奇跡