Feeling of Youth
No young man believes he shall ever die. It was a saying of my brother's, and a fine one. There is a feeling of Eternity in youth, which makes us amend for everything. To be young is to be as one of the Immortal Gods. One half of time indeed is flown-the other half remains in store for us with all its countless treasures; for there is no line drawn, and we see no limit to our hopes and wishes. We make the coming age our own-
The vast, the unbounded prospect lies before us.
Death. old age. are words without a meaning. that pass by us like the idea air which we regard not. Others may have undergone, or may still be liable to them-we "bear a charmed life“, which laughs to scorn all such sickly fancies. As in setting out on delightful journey, we strain our eager gaze forward-
Bidding the lovely scenes at distance hail!
And see no end to the landscape, new objects presenting themselves as we advance; so, in the commencement of life, we set no bounds to our inclinations. nor to the unrestricted opportunities of gratifying them. we have as yet found no obstacle, no disposition to flag; and it seems that we can go on so forever. We look round in a new world, full of life, and motion, and ceaseless progress; and feel in ourselves all the vigor and spirit to keep pace with it, and do not foresee from any present symptoms how we shall be left behind in the natural course of things, decline into old age, and drop into the grave. It is the simplicity, and as it were abstractedness of our feelings in youth, that (so to speak) identifies us with nature, and (our experience being slight and our passions strong) deludes us into a belief of being immortal like it. Our short-lives connection with existence we fondly flatter ourselves, is an indissoluble and lasting union-a honeymoon that knows neither coldness, jar, nor separation. As infants smile and sleep, we are rocked in the cradle of our wayward fancies, and lulled into security by the roar of the universe around us0we quaff the cup of life with eager haste without draining it, instead of which it only overflows the more-objects press around us, filling the mind with their magnitude and with the strong of desires that wait upon them, so that we have no room for the thoughts of death.
我的職業(yè).注定著要讓我看多人世間生生死死的離別....這于"死亡"這個(gè)話題一直都很沉重.也不敢啟齒.
"我們每個(gè)人,年輕的時(shí)候都不相信自己會(huì)死"。這是我老師說過的話,可算是一句妙言。我想,也許青春有一種永生之感---它能彌補(bǔ)一切吧。人的青春時(shí)代好像是一尊永生的神靈。誠然年輕時(shí),生命的一半雖已消逝,但蘊(yùn)藏著不盡財(cái)富的另一半還在繼續(xù),所以我們對(duì)它也抱著無窮的希望和幻想.....
"死亡,老年...."這些只不過是空話,毫無意義;對(duì)于年輕時(shí)的我們聽了,也只當(dāng)耳邊風(fēng),全不放在心上。我們總會(huì)這樣想著:這些事,別人也許經(jīng)歷過,或者可能要承受,但是我們自己,我們會(huì)在神靈的護(hù)佑下長生不老的...對(duì)于諸如此類關(guān)于死亡脆弱的念頭,統(tǒng)統(tǒng)付之輕蔑的一笑,像是剛剛走上愉快的旅程,極目遠(yuǎn)眺......因?yàn)槲覀兡贻p,所以我們可以毫不畏懼地放聲大笑....
年輕時(shí),我們總覺得眼前的風(fēng)光美景應(yīng)接不暇,而且,前程會(huì)更有美不勝收的新鮮景致。在這生活的開端,我們總是放任自己的志趣馳騁,放手給自己一切滿足的機(jī)會(huì)。因?yàn)槟贻p,所以我們還沒有碰上過什么障礙,也沒有感覺到什么疲憊,我們總看到四周一片新天地——生機(jī)盎然,日新月異,因此覺得還可以一直這樣向前走去,直到永遠(yuǎn).....我們年輕,所以我們覺得自己活力充盈,精神飽滿,可與宇宙并駕齊驅(qū)。而且,也無任何跡象可以證明,在大自然的發(fā)展過程中,年輕的我們也會(huì)落伍,衰老,進(jìn)入墳?zāi)?。由于我們年輕時(shí)天真單純,可以說是茫然無知,因而總將自己跟大自然劃上等號(hào);也由于年輕,經(jīng)驗(yàn)少而感情盛,誤以為自己也能和大自然一樣永世長存。我們一廂情愿,癡心妄想,竟把自己在世上的暫時(shí)棲身,當(dāng)作千古不變、萬事長存,好像永遠(yuǎn)都沒有冷淡、黑暗爭執(zhí)、離別....像嬰兒帶著微笑一樣入睡,我們躺在用自己編織成的搖籃里,讓大千世界的萬籟之聲催哄著年輕的自己安然入夢(mèng);因?yàn)槟贻p,我們總是急切切,興沖沖地暢飲生命之杯,怎么也不會(huì)被飲干,反而好像永遠(yuǎn)是滿滿欲溢的;萬千世界紛至沓來,各種欲望隨之而生,使我們根本騰不出工夫去想到死亡.......