偶像勵志英語演講 82:做真正的自己(4)

[00:00.33]Then my career turned into-I got my own sitcom, and that was very successful, another level of success. 接著，我有了自己的喜劇，也很成功，并且是更大的成功。 [00:07.37]And I thought, "what if they find out I'm gay, then they'll never watch," 我又在想，要是人們發(fā)現(xiàn)我是同性戀，該怎么辦?他們再也不會看我的節(jié)目了。 [00:10.12]and this was a long time ago, this was when we just had white presidents-but anyway this was back, many years ago- 這是很早以前的事情，你們可能不知道，這是我們的總統(tǒng)都還是白人的時候，那是多年前的事了。 [00:21.49]and I finally decided that I was living with so much shame, and so much fear, 我一直都是帶著羞恥和恐懼而活， [00:31.29]that I just couldn't live that way anymore, 我最終決定，我不能再這么活著了。 [00:32.57]and I decided to come out and make it creative. 我最終決定將這個秘密公之于眾，要有創(chuàng)造性， [00:34.51]And my character would come out at the same time, 同時也要將我真實的個性展示出來。 [00:36.36]and it wasn't to make a political statement, 不是為了政治， [00:38.10]it wasn't to do anything other than to free myself up from this heaviness that I was carrying around, 也不是為了其他原因，只是要把我從背負已久的沉重的枷鎖中解脫出來。 [00:42.34]and I just wanted to be honest. 我只是想要誠實。 [00:45.02]And I thought, "What's the worst that could happen? I can lost my career." I did. I lost my career. 我想不會有更慘的事情了。失去演藝事業(yè)。 [00:50.58]The show was cancelled after six years, without even telling me, I read it in the paper. 在我做了六年節(jié)目后，電臺在沒有告知我本人的情況下就停播了我的節(jié)目。我是在看了報紙后才知道的。 [00:57.04]The phone didn't ring for three years. 家里的電話三年沒有響過， [01:00.44]I had no offers. Nobody wanted to touch me at all. 沒人想讓我做節(jié)目，沒人愿意接觸我。 [01:05.31]And yet, I was getting letters from kids that almost committed suicide, but didn't, because of what I did. 后來我接到了想要自殺的孩子的來信，他們是因為我所做的事情而沒有自殺。 [01:12.42]And I realised that I had a purpose. 我才知道我活在世上是有目的的， [01:15.13]And it wasn't just about me and it wasn't about celebrity, but I felt like I was being punished... 不僅僅是因為我，不僅僅是因為我是名人，我好像是在被懲罰。 [01:19.40]it was a bad time, I was angry, I was sad, 那段時間很艱難，我很憤怒，也很難過。 [01:23.09]and then I was offered a talkshow. 但接著有人找我做脫口秀節(jié)目。 [01:25.14]And the people that offered me the talkshow tried to sell it. 制作單位想要賣出節(jié)目， [01:28.15]And most stations didn't want to pick it up. 但大多數(shù)的電視臺都不想要， [01:31.08]Most people didn't want to buy it because they thought nobody would watch me. 大多數(shù)人都不想要買，因為他們認為沒人想看我的節(jié)目。

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