暮光之城?暮色 第249期:第十四章 精神勝于物質(zhì)(18)

[00:00:01]For example — his words flowed swiftly now, I had to concentrate to catch it all — the emotion of jealousy. “例如”——他說話變得迅速起來，我不得不集中精力去捕捉每一個(gè)字——“嫉妒的情緒。 [00:06:55]I've read about it a hundred thousand times, seen actors portray it in a thousand different plays and movies. 我讀到過這種情緒千萬次，在一千部不同的戲劇和電影里看過演員對(duì)此的演繹。 [00:13:59]I believed I understood that one pretty clearly. But it shocked me… He grimaced. Do you remember the day that Mike asked you to the dance? 我相信自己對(duì)此的理解非常透徹，但它卻震撼了我……”他扮了個(gè)鬼臉。“你還記得邁克邀請(qǐng)你去舞會(huì)那天嗎?” [00:23:32]I nodded, though I remembered that day for a different reason. The day you started talking to me again. 我點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭，不過我記得那一天卻是出于一個(gè)完全不同的理由?！澳翘炷阌珠_始和我說話了。” [00:32:15]I was surprised by the flare of resentment, almost fury, that I felt — I didn't recognize what it was at first. “我被那陣一閃而過，幾近狂暴的憤怒驚呆了，我所感覺到的——起初我根本分辨不出這是什么樣的情緒。 [00:38:57]I was even more aggravated than usual that I couldn't know what you were thinking, why you refused him. Was it simply for your friend's sake? 我不知道你在想什么，這種挫敗感比平時(shí)來得還要嚴(yán)重，因?yàn)槲也恢滥銥槭裁淳芙^他。僅僅是為了你的朋友的緣故嗎? [00:48:42]Was there someone else? I knew I had no right to care either way. I tried not to care. 還是為了某個(gè)人?我知道我沒有權(quán)利去關(guān)心這些方面。我努力不讓自己去關(guān)心這些。” [00:54:29]And then the line started forming, he chuckled. I scowled in the darkness. “然后排隊(duì)邀請(qǐng)你的隊(duì)伍開始形成了。”他輕笑起來。我在黑暗中把臉繃起來。 [00:59:17]I waited, unreasonably anxious to hear what you would say to them, to watch your expressions. “我等待著，焦慮不安得毫無理由地，想要聽到你會(huì)對(duì)他們說什么，想要看見你的表情。 [01:08:23]I couldn't deny the relief I felt, watching the annoyance on your face. But I couldn't be sure. 我無法否認(rèn)，當(dāng)看到你臉上煩惱的神情時(shí)，我感到一陣寬慰。但我不能肯定。 [01:15:16]That was the first night I came here. I wrestled all night, while watching you sleep, with the chasm between what I knew was right, moral, ethical, and what I wanted. 那是我第一次晚上來這里。當(dāng)我看著你的睡容時(shí)，我整夜都在掙扎著，在我知道是正確的，合乎道德的，合乎倫理的，和我想要的之間掙扎著，有如困于深谷之中。

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