In Loves Arms 愛(ài)的港灣——總有一天我會(huì)嫁給你

 

 

“I’m going to marry you one day.” Beth said to her long time crush Jake. She wore her favorite blue teddy bear shirt. Her four-year-old blue eyes shined in the sun.

“No you’re not, you’re a girl.” Jake said.

 

The California afternoon wind blew his light brown hair. Jumping off the monkey bars he laughed back to class.

 

Sitting alone and confused she didn’t know what to do. Beth sat high on the monkey bars crying. How can her future husband just leave like that?

 

She was going to get him, but how? “I will not let him get away! I won’t! I won’t!”

 

15 years later:

 

“I love you, too, Jake.” Hanging up the phone she caught her mom smiling. “What?”

 

“When is he coming in from France? He’s been there for awhile.” She sat down on her black leather couch. The house was made up of different Indian stuff. On the walls were different dream catchers. Her mother was a full blood Cherokee Indian. She passed away when Beth was eight.

 

“He has a lot of schooling to do right now. Maybe this Saturday.”

 

Fixing her short overalls she thought of Jake. Who would have thought they were going to date when she turned five?

 

“Is he still living in Colorado?” Her mother Kay wore a white tank top with tan pants. And long blonde hair with pretty blue eyes. She was the most beautiful woman on Earth. And Beth is looking like her by the minute.

 

“Yeah, I hate having a long distance relationship.” She plopped on a leather chair.

 

“It’s ok baby, you know he loves you more than anything in this world. Love will keep you together.”

 

Beth could not help but smile. Her mother is and will always be her best friend.

 

Jake sat in his hotel the school rented for him. School of law. He loved going overseas for everything. But he missed being with Beth. That hurt him the most.

 

Spending the lonely nights in the hotel made him think of how much it would hurt to spend the rest of his life without her in it.

 

Getting up off his bed he went into the bathroom. Watching his reflection in the mirror, all he could think about was Beth. He would leave Thursday, and get there Friday night.

 

Turning off the light he jumped into the cold bed. On a coffee table near his bed rested a frame with them in it. It was taken at a beach about two years ago. It was the best time of their lives.

 

It was Thursday morning and Beth waited for Jake’s morning phone call. He would call at eight — it was ten.

 

Beth got out of bed and got her favorite blue tank top. She took off her shirt and screamed at the top of her lungs.

 

“What? What?” Her mother came rushing into her room. Staring at her naked daughter she saw the lump of her breast. “Does it hurt?”

 

Beth could only say “No.” Looking at the lump, she cried in pain.

 

“Let’s get you to the doctor.”

 

“Ok, let me get dressed.”

 

Shutting the door behind her, the room became silent. Shaking she put on her shirt, and ran out into the living room.

 

“Mom, where are my blue shorts?”

 

“In the dresser, second drawer.”

 

Finishing getting dressed she hopped into her car. Her red mustang drove like a baby.

 

They waited for the doctor to come in. Beth could not begin to think she had cancer. As her mind drifted off her cell phone rang.

 

“Hello?” Her heart skipped a beat, hoping it was Jake.

 

“Hey, how are you?” He asked out of breath.

 

“Could be better. Why didn’t you call me this morning?”

 

“Sorry, school got ahold of me today.”

 

“Why are you out of breath?” Looking stunned she stared at her mother.

 

“I’m so sorry, he’ll call back.” Her mother gave Beth a hug.

 

The doctor came in, and greeted his self. “Hello. I’m Kevin Baker.” He smiled while examining her breast.

 

A few minutes went by while they waited for an answer. “Yeah, it’s cancer, it looks like it’s been there for a while.”

 

Jake sat in the waiting room, unsure about going in or not. He just waited, five minutes passed as he walked towards a CNA. “Hi. My girl friend is seeing a doctor right now, can I have the room number?”

 

She checked her files. “What’s her name?”

 

“Beth Fowley.” Jake looked around the waiting room.

 

“Jake!” Beth said surprised. She gave him a hug. He held her tightly, never wanting to let go of his angel. “I missed you so very much. I left last night; I could not stand being without you again.” He kissed her lips.

 

“I missed you, too.” Beth answered back.

 

“Let’s go home.” Kay hugged Jake.

 

Once they got home Jake grabbed her by the hand and sat her down.

 

“Beth, I loved you all my life. Ever since I saw you on the monkey bars, saying you were going to marry me. I knew I loved you. I can’t spend another lonely night at home without you being there. You make my life complete. Will you marry me, Beth?”

 

Tears of pain flooded her blue eyes. “I can’t marry you.” She shook her head, “I just can’t.”

 

Getting up, her mother tried stopping her. But Beth closed the door behind her. The door that she hid behind, hoping one day she could wake up, and the cancer could be gone. And Jake can have a wonderful life with her. Forever. How can he love someone that is going to die from cancer?

 

A week passed, message after message, Beth would not answer. Her mother would answer the phone every time he called. Jake had no idea what was going on. He needed to talk to Beth right away, and holding his phone calls was not going to help one bit. It couldn’t help the canyon deep whole in his heart that was full of pain.

 

He had to see her, whether she liked it or not. He had to tell her he didn’t care what happened to her, he still wanted to be with her. Getting dressed in his blue jean shorts, and his favorite white shirt she loved to see him in. He got into his car.

 

Reaching her door he looked in the driveway, her mother’s car was not there. Now she would have to face him, and not hide behind her mother. He knocked.

 

“Coming.” Beth answered, she opened the door. She wore a red robe with her name on it. She got from her grandma a few years ago.

 

“Please let me in, we need to talk.”

 

She could not be rude. They needed to talk alright, about how he was going to lose his only love to cancer. How was he going to take that? She opened the door wider, and he slowly walked in.

 

“I hate how you can’t talk to me. I hate that we can’t be together. Don’t you understand I love you?” He ran his hand through his brown hair frustrated. “You can tell me anything you need to. I’m here for you today, tomorrow, and forever. And you know this. Now what is wrong?”

 

He cradled her on the leather couch. All her fears, and pain went away for that moment. Nothing seemed to matter, but him and her, together, forever. A silent tear ran down her right cheek and landed on Jake’s shoulder.

 

“I love you, that’s why I have to let you go.” She wiped her tear. Jake hated to see her so upset; she was usually a strong willed person. Her coming down like this was not usual, and it freaked him out.

 

“Let me go? Come on, what’s wrong?” Jake held her tighter, giving her a light kiss on her cheek.

 

“I have breast cancer. I found out a few weeks ago. I don’t want to marry you, and have you get hurt…”

 

He stopped her words with the sweetest kiss man could make. All her doubts and fears slowly drifted away like the wind. Everything fell into place; they found the love they thought they had missed.

 

They will forever be in love’s arms.

 

貝絲對(duì)她愛(ài)慕已久的杰克說(shuō)：“總有一天我會(huì)嫁給你。”她穿著最喜歡的帶玩具熊的藍(lán)色襯衣。四歲的她，藍(lán)色的眼睛在陽(yáng)光下閃閃發(fā)亮。

 

　　杰克說(shuō)：“不，不行，你還是一個(gè)小女孩呢。”

 

　　加利福尼亞午后的微風(fēng)吹拂著他淺棕色的頭發(fā)。他從單杠上跳下來(lái)，一路笑著跑回了教室。

 

　　貝絲獨(dú)自坐在那里，滿臉迷惑，不知所措。她坐在高高的單杠上哭起來(lái)。她未來(lái)的丈夫怎么就這樣走開(kāi)了呢？

 

　　她一定要得到他，但該怎么做呢?“我不會(huì)讓他離開(kāi)我！不會(huì)！絕不會(huì)！”

 

　　15年后

 

　　“我也愛(ài)你，杰克。”掛斷電話之后，她發(fā)現(xiàn)母親在笑。“怎么了？”

 

　　母親坐在黑皮沙發(fā)上說(shuō)道：“他什么時(shí)候從法國(guó)回來(lái)?。克谀抢锎擞幸魂囎恿?。”整棟房子都是印度風(fēng)格的設(shè)計(jì)，墻上掛滿了各種不同的捕夢(mèng)網(wǎng)。母親的母親是純正的切羅基印第安血統(tǒng)。在貝絲八歲時(shí)她就去世了。

 

　　“他現(xiàn)在學(xué)業(yè)很繁重，可能要到這周六才行。”

 

　　整理短褲的時(shí)候，她突然想起了杰克。在她還是個(gè)五歲孩子時(shí)，誰(shuí)會(huì)想到他們會(huì)約會(huì)呢？

 

　　“他還在科羅拉多嗎？”她母親凱穿著白色的背心和褐色的短褲。她有著長(zhǎng)長(zhǎng)的金發(fā)和漂亮的藍(lán)眼睛。她是這個(gè)世界上最美麗的女人。貝絲長(zhǎng)得越來(lái)越像她了。

 

　　“是的，我真討厭這種天各一方的感覺(jué)。”她一屁股坐在皮椅上。

 

　　“不要擔(dān)心，寶貝，你應(yīng)該明白他愛(ài)你勝過(guò)世界上的其他任何東西。愛(ài)會(huì)使你們?cè)谝黄鸬摹?rdquo;

 

　　貝絲禁不住笑了起來(lái)。母親現(xiàn)在是而且永遠(yuǎn)都會(huì)是她最好的朋友。

 

　　杰克坐在學(xué)校為他租的旅館里。他讀的是法學(xué)院。他愿意為了任何事情出國(guó)。但他又非常想念貝絲。這令他非常痛苦。

 

　　在旅館度過(guò)一個(gè)個(gè)孤單的夜晚，使他體會(huì)到生活中沒(méi)有了她將是多么痛苦。

 

　　他從床上爬起來(lái)，走進(jìn)浴室?？粗R子里的自己，腦子里想的卻都是貝絲。他周四就要出發(fā)，周五晚上就能夠到達(dá)。

 

　　他關(guān)了燈，爬上冰冷的床。在床邊的咖啡桌上有一張他們兩人的照片。那是兩年前他們?cè)诤＿吪牡?。那是他們生命中最美好的一段時(shí)光。

 

　　周四早上，貝絲正在等杰克的電話。他通常會(huì)在八點(diǎn)打過(guò)來(lái)，但現(xiàn)在已經(jīng)十點(diǎn)了。

 

　　貝絲下了床，拿出自己最喜歡的那件藍(lán)色襯衣。她脫下睡衣，突然尖叫起來(lái)。

 

　　她母親沖進(jìn)房間問(wèn)道：“怎么了？怎么了？”看到女兒裸著身子，她注意到了她胸部的腫塊。“疼嗎？”

 

　　貝絲只是說(shuō)“不”，她盯著那個(gè)腫塊，痛哭起來(lái)。

 

　　“走，我們?nèi)タ瘁t(yī)生。”

 

　　“好吧，我穿上衣服。”

 

　　她關(guān)上了門，屋內(nèi)一片寂靜。她顫抖著穿上了襯衣，突然跑回了客廳。

 

　　“媽媽，我的藍(lán)短褲呢？”

 

　　“在衣柜里，第二個(gè)抽屜。”

 

　　穿好衣服，她跳進(jìn)汽車。她的紅色野馬脫韁而出。

 

　　在等待醫(yī)生的時(shí)候，貝絲禁不住懷疑自己得了癌癥。正當(dāng)她的思緒游離的時(shí)候，手機(jī)響了。

 

　　“你好？”她的心跳加速，希望是杰克的電話。

 

　　“嘿，你好嗎？”他上氣不接下氣地問(wèn)道。

 

　　“還不錯(cuò)。你今天早上怎么沒(méi)給我打電話？”

 

　　“對(duì)不起，今天學(xué)校事情比較多。”

 

　　“你怎么氣喘吁吁的??？”她突然感到有點(diǎn)頭暈，看了母親一眼。

 

　　母親擁抱著貝絲說(shuō)：“真是可惜，不過(guò)他還會(huì)打過(guò)來(lái)的。”

 

　　這時(shí)，醫(yī)生進(jìn)來(lái)并做了自我介紹：“您好，我是凱文·貝克。”在檢查她胸部的時(shí)候，他一直保持微笑。

 

　　幾分鐘過(guò)去了，她們等到了結(jié)果。“是的，是癌癥。而且好像已經(jīng)有一段時(shí)間了。”

 

　　杰克坐在候診室，不知道是否該進(jìn)去。他一直在那里等著，五分鐘之后，他走過(guò)去問(wèn)一位助理護(hù)士：“你好，我女朋友在里面做檢查。你能告訴我她的房間號(hào)嗎？”

 

　　她看了一下記錄，問(wèn)道：“她叫什么名字？”

 

　　杰克環(huán)顧了一下候診室，答道：“貝絲·福爾利。”

 

　　“杰克！”貝絲吃驚地喊道。她跑過(guò)去抱住他。他將她緊緊地?fù)碓趹牙铮孟裼肋h(yuǎn)不想讓他的天使飛走。“我太想你了，我昨天晚上就出發(fā)了。我再也無(wú)法忍受沒(méi)有你的日子了。”他親吻了她的雙唇。

 

　　貝絲回答道：“我也想你。”

 

　　凱擁抱了一下杰克說(shuō)：“我們回家吧。”